so, looking back to what i was, i think that i go through a lot of shit, but like A LOT and now life`s its like : "fucking stop fran, you are going to explode"..or something like that, now, i am very very unconfortable writing and very high.
 I was going to write something deep but i cant, my mind dont let me, can you imagine if you are high AND dont speak english? its like 23242344 times more difficult, fuck im dead.

I came back to lifffeee...

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Now... now, life is so cool, is like a book, it tells you the most important things and teaches you about everything and everyone, yes im a mess so i make life a million of mistakes and do shits that i regret, but at least i keep my therapist busy, i dont know, so, things are still difficult, a lot, i lost many many friends, i knew the real faces of others and im with people that love me too, now im sick, i dont know why, i feel very very bad but is okay, its life.
I think that i need to put here like all my journey to this point (in wich i feel very happy and relax about life, and fighting with my demons like everybody and dont let them win. trying to fix some problems and letting others go too.) because maybe someone will read somewhen(?) in life and think that she/he is not alone and im here. in this world to, willing to help you maybe, just tell me because im so dumb that i dont get close to people but that doesnt mean that i am not interested, sorry :c please understand

I dont fucking know what the heck im writing, im so confuse, i think i have fever or something
Im now with a boy, i really really think that he IS. I feel happy with him, not okay, HAPPY. its strange, a new feeling because before i dont give me feelings like happiness but its cool, that now im like living things differently. Feelings that i have but with other description in my head, i dont know, i just feel love, and is sooo cool, i can be anything and he will be happy with me, even whem im sick! i love him

So life is going in the right way i think, finally, and i have to struggle everyday to keep it like this, im tired sometimes but it doest bored you for sure.