first time that i feel nervous, i dont know, i dont want to go to school again, but i want to much to go and feel good studying and all that shit, dont know whats happening in my brain, i dont know what to do next, i am like a robot now, go to work, go back home, clean the house and sleep.. and repeat, i just think in the mood of ariana in 7 rings and got that in my to do list forever now, i just want to enjoy life, more and more because i feel that im not doing it right, since the hospital i feel that i still dont do "the thing" the right way, but its not like we have a book for the recently deceased but in life, that shit would be so perfect, but no, life its confusing, not hard, fucking confusing and strange, if you think too much about it it will mess with your head, and if you dont, you are a robot, so confusing
thank you next fife.